Selasa, 27 Disember 2011
For the last 10 minutes, I have had, 'What an ass of a Monday' in my head.
Was I cursing for yesterday? No. It was actually a good day at the park, then some time at the Curve. But come to think of it, I didn't really enjoy myself at the malls. I was smelly, yes. Then we all needed caffeine. Or maybe we needed more of it, because we got grumpy on our way back home.
Of course I was also on it silently. Silently grumpy. It just bugged me that I hadn't been to the market for food supplies even though it had been 3 days of holiday. I offered to just do my shopping after sending everyone else home, but no, everybody wanted to be with me - in the car. So, okaylah.
But then again, I took time to remember what other things we have ran out of, the things to stock ourselves with and the stuff we really need. Chicken needed time to chopping. The fish really needed to be selected. Couldn't remember which toothpaste type we usually take. Then running back and up the aisle for detergents, the softeners... Seeing a new type of softener and took a sniff at the new scent. Then remembering the simple pleasures, I left the cart again and ran to the soda aisle to grab his favourite six pack of A&W RootBeer.
At the cashier tills, I switched to two lanes. I had two people ahead of me. Maybe I was paranoid, all of them looked b*tchy at me. There was little that I could do with my smell. I naturally look pale. And so what with the hair that I couldn't control especially being at this length?!
Well, anyways. The cashier spoke with me very nicely. He was accommodative and had a rhythm to what he was doing. But it just bothered me that he had a self-tattooed heart shape in between his thumb and pointing finger. Why would one want to do it to oneself is a question.
Then of course, by the time I got back to the car I was greeted by unhappiness for having waited me over an hour (I was in for 1hr 15m). I was stumped because I was satisfied with my shopping where everybody got what everybody needed and would have wanted. And I did tell them I could go after everybody was sent home beforehand.
It went on until dinner. One said, no need for me to make the long awaited chicken rice. One repeated. One said it'll take too much time.
By then I couldn't care less. Making chicken rice is only just one dish. Why should I sacrifice the rest of the items for the whole week for that one night? Because of the chicken rice, I bought 2 whole chickens! And I made them well. For the first time, I think I did this chicken rice at the fastest of speed, with the cleanest prep, fastest and cleanest clean up. They were ready slightly over an hour.
I just ate them. And I ate them with my heart. Why should I care about others if others don't care about me? I do things for them and they don't have consideration about me. I ate them in whole. And dished out 4 plates of rice. I let nobody bother me with any look or statement.
Brought myself out with a glass of cordial drink for a breather. Then I got distracted with this cat that lounges around the house lately, played with him for a while and when it.
I was tired. I was really tired. I have had insomnia for the past few weeks. I don't know when I've had more or less of sleep. My body can't tell. But I was feeling it that night.
Showered, let my dotter go up, down and over me while I slowly zoned out.
This morning when I woke up, I felt so-so. But my mood slowly went weary. I just hate it when you call people, they don't respond. Slow movements when I need to go already.
Then my maid asks me if it was me whom brought a glass out because now it's dead lying on the porch, partially. I was sad. That glass did a great deal of good to me.
My mouth was shut on the way to work. Didn't have anything to say.
Mood's off. I don't think I should dwell if this all is my fault for even feeling this way. I shouldn't. All I know is that this feeling sucks!
Rabu, 21 Disember 2011
Hari ni saya berusaha untuk bershopping refreshment untuk ofis. Oleh kerana ada keperluan tengahari di luar ofis, saya ajak sekali kawan gi beli barang kat kedai.
Sesampai je kat kedai, aku tengok duit rupanya ada dalam belasan ringgit je. Sengal betul rasanya sebab area tu memang tak ada ATM. Harus ko pergi balik pusing one round and tempuh 3-4 traffic light just to get to one. Yang dah diambil dalam troli tu ada la confirm dekat 200 hengget. So keluarkanlah duit plastik. Nak buat cemana kan? Sekali masa garik-garik tu, aku dah teragak perkara itu boleh terjadi. Lately ni, kad kredit aku tu macam tak boleh dibaca. Dan maka, perkara itu pun terjadilah...
So mandangkan aku dah terlewat, aku terpaksa panggil bebudak yang tolong heret berkotak-kotak air mineral tu masuk balik ke dalam kedai. Nak bayar cemana kan? Dalam dompet pun ada 12 hengget je!
After lunch, I went la to cucuk wang. Tapi itu wang sangat wang besar kerana line panjang beratur yang ada baik aku gi makan sashimi pastu pi balik kat ATM tu pastu ulang sebanyak 2 kali berturut-turut.
Dengan patientnya, aku pun tubik kembali ke kedai tersebut sekor kambing. Dia kata dia dah pre-scan so they can just take the data off by keying in some ref no boleh terus get back the purchase info yang aku tak dapat beli earlier. Mereka pun terus mencuba sehinggakan 2 orang try on 3 separate cash tills. Mentara tu, again, barang-barang dah loading dalam itu kenderaan. Terpaksa bawak keluar barang-barang utama dan discan semula. Belum cukup itu, air mineral berkotak-kotak tu masa aku nak membayar baru perasan yang aku dah sauk 1.5L punya kotak. Haish. Terpaksa unload. Tunggu load 500ml sebanyak 4 kotak. Dan aku pun membayarnya. Itu semua telah mengambil masa selama 1 jam.
Sebaik saja balik dari opis, aku pun membelek resit. Mengapa murah pula sekotak mineral water ni ya? Murah sesangat. Gosok mata banyak kali sehingga hitam mata biru ku ini. Kalah Lindsay Lohan. Hitam terus cam Wolverine. Samar-samar bak halilintar. Ku kerut-kerut dahi. Semakin sinis pandangan ini. Terus aku jadi puitis jiwa penuh misteri.
Mereka telah caj 4 kotak 500ml mineral water sebanyak RM0.60 sekotak = Total RM2.40 untuk 24botol sekotak x 4 kotak = 96 botol air 500ml mineral water. ... ... ... ... ...
... ... ... ... ... kena la nak gi balik kedai tu jap lagi ni. Tak larat aku. Aku juga tak sanggup nak bagi orang minum underpaid mineral water. Tunggu je lah sampai time balik ofis terus.
Kalau di Twitter, aku hashtagkan terus perkara ini sebagai #sengalnya. Kerana itu semua benar belaka.
Rezeki aku pada hari ini. At least it confirms yang bukan aku sorang je yang pening lalat. Heh.
Selasa, 13 Disember 2011
A few months ago, the kids were going about getting themselves bicycles. Sorang confident gila kata nak beskal 2 tayar. Kon.pi.den. Sesungguhnya. Then sorang lagi pun nak gak beskal. Dan dan Adik pun nak, "Nak ikelkiti... (Nak beskal Hello Kitty)" Mana pun entah nak carik Ikelkiti dia tatau. Janji bukan aku yang nak kena carik sebab, ITU, perjanjian antara bapak ngan anaknya.
Since Abang Long was so confident nak beskal 2 tayar, we gave him the benefit of doubt. Bukannya apa, the kids in our housing area, umur 5-6 tahun pun dah guna 2 tayar je. So bapaknya suruh dia try kat depan kedai beskal tu.
|Cobaan pertama. |
Note: Ia adalah COBAAN dan bukan cubaan. Sekian.
|Bersama bantuan oleh Ayahanda.|
|Dan maseh berbantuan...|
|I am beautiful and I know it.|
|Mentara ni, the lady tokey kedai tu yang suruh aku ambik gambar budak tecip ni. Bukan tak mo. Haha. Pening tengok dia. So I caved.|
|Yang berdua ni pun tersungit-sungit...|
|Machiam mana pun, Mak tak nyesal dengar cakap pompuan tu! |
...sebab ini lua olang sangat kiut wo...
Jumaat, 9 Disember 2011
Dan akhirnya, aku ditempias kerana londehan orang.
Rabu, 7 Disember 2011
Ni tengah nak tidokan Cik Adik. Satu keje la kalau aku yang nak kena tidokan dia. Macam-macam discussion politik yang dia nak ketengahkan. Haish.
Cik Adik sekarang ni semakin tegap. Mak rasa macam... Tak nak dokong dia. Mantap. Nanti takut Mak tombang.
Ni dok sibuk nak susu. I am making very the dek je ngan dia. Tadi masa orang bagi makan, dia tak nak makan. Tak boleh ke tido je, budak kecik ni? Kalau Papa dia suruh, laju je terus lelap dalam masa 5 minit. Papa tak turunkan ilmu alam itu pun kat Mak. Mak nak lotan Papa.
Runsing aku nengok dia ni. Baring, berdiri, melekap kat dinding, golek kat katil. Ni bakal ahli gimrama negara ni. Heh.
Ah. Dahlah la ya. Babai.
Jumaat, 2 Disember 2011
Ni ha. Harga runtuh. Harga setahun hanya sekali.
On the way nak perabih duit beli barang sekolah budak, pi la perabih duit bonus sekali untuk 7 tahun raya berturut-turut dengan sesalan di kemudian hari. Haha.
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Khamis, 1 Disember 2011
"I'm just jittery. Maybe at the back of my mind, they won't be little boys anymore. My little boys."
|It's as if I won't see them the way they are after it happens.|