Watikah hari ini adalah...
Today is the first day balik to work since 11 days ago. No, I haven't been holidaying. Very far from that.
Banyak perkara happened. But I will only tell you on the surface of it and what I am going to do for it.
I went on a short trip by myself that ended in tragedy. But I didn't die from it so I'll only live to be stronger.
Then Cik Adik got sick now down with pneumonia. Abang Long was also symptomatic but the bacteria cuma dok bergantung at his tonsils still. Alhamdulillah Abang Ngah is still well walaupun he was hospitalised 3 weeks earlier. I hit my kaki on the bedside table and cracked my nail open. But I'm not complaining. It has only made me love my children more and appreciate them more as each individual. Especially when I have the time to spend the days with them.
If you love someone, you will show it to them. I take upon me that I will continue and give more to them as much as I can.
Perhaps I am emotional sekarang ni, but I found myself. Truthful to myself. Mending for myself. And making myself feel better. Looking forward to what I can provide for my family. Even if the battle was lost, but I went through it alive.
At this point of time, saya bersyukur yang saya sangat menyayangi diri sendiri dan tahu apa yang Allah berikan di hadapan mata saya ni benda yang nampak, dan tak nampak, are all just for me.