Hati Jernih

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Keputusan UPSR keluar hari ni.  I was the first batch and Abang Long is final batch sitting for it. Perasaan itu ironic sikit.  But I have always been a believer that the results does not define you as a person - it's your heart and intent yang lagi always always always more important above everything else.

So I actually oppose parents who go about visually in social media on their children punya assessments or big examination.  It gives unnecessary pressure buat anak dan opens the door to any chance of self-shame afterwards.  Segan dengan kawan lain.  Segan dengan kawan-kawan Mak Bapak sendiri tu pun lain.  No reason for unhealthy competition.  But hey, that's just me.  Everyone is entitled to their own say and life's beliefs.  Life still goes on with or without great results on paper.  

Alhamdulillah Abang Long did okay. He will still get to go into Form 1 kan. Mak jugak bernasib baik sebab dari awal memang emphasize asking the kids to mentally prepare ambition diorang so we can guide them for the necessary papers, subject etc. And so he will be the best chef in the world - InsyaaAllah,

All hugs and kisses.  So long you stay in the right track, you still have a good heart, that's all that matters to me.  Because having good paper results never guarantee that you will be a good person, good worker, good employee or team leader or a good businessman.

This is a self-reminder and gesture I put into the world today.

May all be blessed with whatever comes.

Nadia.Is.Grateful

Biru Mata Hitem Mak

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Today is the third day aku masih tak jumpa cimata.  Dan mata aku adalah fefeeling strain from wearing glasses 10 years ago.  Itu pun kira nasib la laki aku ada bilang bagitau told me yang got found my old glasses ni.  At least the feeling is not as bad without it when I began masuk balik ofis ni.  Mata memang rasa gila bab! tak boleh focus kat screen pada kadar lama.  

So dalam senyap, tengahari tadi aku dah pi buat cimata pakej.  Nasib baik power Mak tak melebihi 200.  It's my astig yang cam harams.  Reading dia lebih tinggi dari power yang lain.  So pakej cimata kedai ni, ko kena topup cost kalau power lebih dari 200.  Aku tanya jugak kalau lense astig wujud ke tak (sebab aku rasa ada tapi aku tak penah beli).  Mamat tu kata kena order.  Dah sama la jugak maksudnya kan - kena tunggu.  

Credit Google HERE

Opocot! Tanjat Mak ada orang pulak ambik gambar nih!

Anyway, dalam tempoh 5 minit, aku dah pilih, try, buat eye test pakai mesen dan manual, dan terus booking untuk ambik petang ni. 

Semoga sukses sebab confirm aku tau laki aku tak suka punya cimata tu.  Dan kalau tak suka, maka itu perkara bolehlah disettle kendian. For immediate time being, all I know is that I need glasses of my own power secepat mungking sebab mata aku dah rasa gila strain with all variance.  

Oklah dah bai.

Sengal Gila

Watikah hari ini adalah...

1. Aku tak jumpa cimata dari malam kelmarin. Semalam seharian tanpa cimata.  Dan hari ni datang ofis tanpa cimata.

2. Pagi ni, aku realized aku kena UTI - urinary tract infection. I put a note, kena bawak air dari rumah untuk aku lebih berdisplin untuk minum air lebih kerap pagi ni untuk cuci pundi ittew.

3. So I got ready.  Tapi aku terasa macam something missing. Then I told Cik Adik, "OK lah mak dah nak pegi keje ni."  Dia jawab dengan muka tak pandang aku pun, "Habis tu, Mak tak payah pakai tudung ke?"  Perghh.

4. Sebab kehilangan cimata, aku put mental note yang aku kena keluar lagi awal dari biasa.  Aku drive slow (kalau kategori aku ni, secara tidak merbahaya dan cilok-mencilok), sampai opis pun awal - bagus. Aku hayak la kuih minum pagi yang aku jual kat opis tu sekali seperti biasa.  Dah letak kuih kat pantry, sekali tengok tak bawak sepit kuih. Lantak le korang pilih pakai tangan ke, plastik ke... semua belajar pepandai kan?  Pepandai la u'olls settle.

5. Sambil jalan ke workstesen, aku nampak sorang tu bawak sebotol air minum dia. Mak tak pack pun air tersebut untuk diri sendiri.  Pepandailah Mak pagi ni ya.  Sebab Mak lupa Mak ada UTI.  

6. Dah sampai workstesen, kunun nak update la Fesbuk pasal cimata ni (sebab dah seminggu ni memang asik hilang cimata je.  Tapi biasanya memang jumpa balik.  Tapi ni tidak.).  Korek henbeg sekali tengok henfon takde.  Si lurus ni pun kol la henfon dia, Cik Adik yang jawab for me to ask the obvious:

Aku: Henfon Mak kat rumah ye?

Cik Adik: Tak tau.

Aku: Ye la kat rumah, sebab kalau tak, bila masa Cik Adik ikut Mak datang ofis tadi kan (sendiri jawab)...

7. Nasib baik ada WA web.  Message je la sesiapa beritahu fon ada kat rumah.

8. Nampaknya mata aku ni semakin mengecil.  Laki baru message kata ada spare glasses I had 10 years ago.  So I'm going home to use that one and get my henfon back.

9. Dah tau ada UTI, yang aku pi bancuh air kopi dah kenapa?  Habis minum pulak tu.  Haih.

Nadia.Is.DonoWerLah

Langkawi Island

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Lama dah I tak post personal pictures (sebab hidup Mak personal sangat).  But I found some photos this morning while mengombahing files in the ponpiter (computer).  So this is #ThrowbackThursday for me on a Friday (coz I actually baru realised today is Friday [bongok perasaan ittew]).

We went to Langkawi around this time last year.  Stayed dekat Langkawi Lagoon.  A long time ago (8 tahun dulu kot) when we traveled to the island, we stayed dekat Langkawi Lagoon juga.  But when we went last year, I suppose no maintenance had been done lah throughout our absence when we asked for the water chalet.  Apart of that, the previous guest yang tinggal dalam bilik kitorang tu had actually boiled susu anak dekat dalam water boiler tu so it was very uncomfortable lah.  Berbau, melekit, rasa unhygenic...  Kita minta tukar bilik and got the upgraded newly furnished rooms instead.     

But I didn't take the photos of the room.

What I have is gambar of the view that we have.  So it was sepetang with the kids at the beach.  I love the fact that it's walking distance je.  

The view is the cantik and calming.  It smells like the sea - salty.  I appreciate that sebab some beaches sekarang ni ada yang dah tak ada bau macam laut walaupun ia adalah tepi pantai.

Treading steps mengejar Abang Long. Mak pulak sibuk sampai tak perasan diorang bawak Mak ke mana.  Masih mengagau guna phone baru jam tu.  Ingat pulak aku ni ya.

Rupanya next to it is perkampungan nelayan.  Or tempat orang sidai bot nelayan diorang.  Apa-apa pun, seronoklah sebab bukannya hari-hari dapat holiday boleh tengok perkara tersebut semua.

Abang Ngah terus berusaha kutip seashells yang mana afterwards Papa told him he cannot bring back any of them because we go to visit and preserve the nature; not to kutip any other thing balik - even if it is for Nenek; bikos Nenek tak folo pegi holiday ni.

So we head back to the hotel.  Nak siap nak keluar.  Nak pi carik makan.  Tengok-tengok apa lagi ada kat Langkawi.

And I found this:

But I tak didn't get la walaupun hati tu meronta mau...

Okay.  Just that for now.



Nadia.Signs.Out

#ThrowBackThursday #OnAFriday
#Langkawi #LangkawiLagoonResort
#FamilyHoliday
#Getaway

A Little Benadryl in Life

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I am, as person, is like a dose of Benadryl.  It's either you get a strong dose of the ubat, the ubat is ignored or it will put you to sleep.

Yes, sincerely and truthfully, I am an extremely boring person.  I don't even post photos or nak tulis pun ikut bila ada rasa je.  And I actually have more than 3 blogs that is random to fit what I feel at that time of writing.  When I am almost pure to myself, I communicate in English.  Maybe that's why I am more direct as a person.  Like, if you are sick and just sitting there looking at me, I will offer you ubat lah.  I give little-little.  But if you need higher dosage, I will give oso.

But here's the thing.  Not everyone can see, face or understand what they think they are facing because judgement and own personal strength (weak or egoistic) clouds and overwhelms them.  So if the area is familiar, I will help to guide you.  But you will need to get through the stormy seas yourself.  Bikos no one else can do that for you.  The sea is your own emotions and the ship is your own being.

The ride will be rougher when you start complaining about the things that makes your ship rocky and start blaming everybody else on the weather, the rocks, the birds that poop on your ship among every other thing.  

Then I question:  

1. Do you want to get through this storm, or do you want to stay there and just blame everything else? 

My support: I listen, filter and sift through nonsense and shortcuts.  I will tell you what I assess through, quite straightforward.

2. Don't you want to see what is broken on your ship that is making you feel impaired to move?

My support: We approach it depending on your behavioural feedback. The more your struggle, the more direct my responses be.  We don't need laces and vibrant paint colours to fix the ship.  We need wood, panels, nails and hammers.  Nobody said this process is easy.  But I will help support you.

3. Let us identify what is broken and we get it fixed. 

My support: But I'm not on the ship.  You are.  I will help guide you so you know how to fix yourself the next time around and be proud of this knowledge. 

I am sorry that I'm not diplomatic.  Whenever I try, it becomes something else tiresome because it doesn't fix the problem.  It only buffers it and may divert to turn into another problem, or a whole length of it.

It takes years to undo self, and years to learn/implement new habits.  It takes a lot to ACCEPT and EMBRACE yourself.  To FORGIVE self, and accept your self-flaws.  To FORGIVE everyone else that has come across your path.  I never said this was an easy.  But you've got to stop blaming other people for your own life's failure.  You always have an option to get help.  But be sincere in wanting to change.  Identifying what to change.  And making effort to improve your life.

This is just how I feel.

This is just something from me.

If only some people are able to see the views of other people instead of blaming how wrong and negative people who are trying to help you.  

There is no such things as coincidence.  God puts the right people in your path, for you.

Nadia.Is.Serious

  

Wordless Wednesday: Comprehensive Breakfast Recipe

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Despite the terrible haze at where I am IPU 211 as at 7:00am, Mak tetiba had great energy to make complicated things for breakfast on a working weekday.

I made bun with egg, beef strip and parmesan cheese.  I don't know what you want to call it.  But I would call it Comprehensive Breakfast. Tinggal takde sausage je.  Hehe.

Instruction:Preset your oven at 170-180 celcius.

Ingredients untuk 1 unit:1 Beef Strips / Breakfast Strips / Lamb Slice etc
1 Sudu Besar Parmesan Cheese in Strips (potong panjang-panjang macam mozarella korang tabur atas pizza tu kan)
1 Bun untuk burger pun boleh
1 Biji Telur
Aluminium foil

1. Korek bun tu belah atas.  Motif, nak jadikan bun tu jadi macam mangkuk.
2. Lipat aluminium foil tu keliling bun tu.
3. Letak Beef Strip dalam bun.
4. Letak Parmesan Cheese atas Beef Strip tu.
5. Letak sebijik telur atas semua tu.
6. Masukkan dalam oven. Set timer to 20 minutes.

Dah siap.  Jangan lebih 20 minutes sebab nanti telur tu jadi keras. Let it cook outside by itself.

Then I also made salad.  Bikos hasben tak suka feta cheese, I made salad using Oakleaf Salad dengan roasted sesame dressing, dan campakkan beef strip dalam tu sekali. Okay jugak. 

I made mine, with feta cheese.  That's what I like best.

My Comprehensive Breakfast and Oakleaf Salad with Feta Cheese

Some how today, I also saw Nasi Goreng Kampung.  Bau cam, janji dapat semulut pun jadi la.  Jadi ambik sekampit.

Cik Yon's Nasi Goreng Kampung

Lepas tu lupa yang tengahari ni nanti ada orang nak ajak belanja lunch.

Perggghhh... So pompuan, apa yang ko nak buat dengan mekanan ni semua sekarang?  

Nadia.Is.Speechless

The Beach House in My Head

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I am contemplating a lot of things right now:

- Ada masa yang rasa macam nak free fall - tapi kang aku mungkin mati dulu sebab heart failure sebelum sampai tanah.  

- Ada rasa macam secara rawak nak lari keliling bangunan and sweat it all out just by using my mind and I do it successfully.  

- Ada juga yang rasa macam leaving everything to be in beach house and that is all that matters - memang gila selfish la ni.  

Whatever it is that I have in my mind is simply Lala Land.  Best tempat tu.  Ada la dalam beberapa ribu kali I check in ke situ in a day.  It helps me to dream, to explore things that I think I would want and how to get there (walaupun most of the time the place is just there, and I can't find the connection road langsung).

But can you imagine this.  

Aku dok kat beach house kan.  Pakek bikini top kaler dark blue dengan white cut-off jeans looking slim don't forjot like the Mat Salleh.  Rambut mousey coloured with blonde streaks across on my back sambil pakai rayban tengah masak kat dapur.  Rayban tu penting sebab dapur ni open concept, berhadapan dengan family room yang folding doors dia open to a patio, overlooking the sea.  Itu pun penting.

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The house is wooden green turqoise colour.  Kinda matches the colour of the overlooking sea.  As I cook, the wind drifts in and engulfs in my hair.  Perasaan tu cam comel sangat.  Lagi-lagi boleh titiskan peluh dada dalam kuali bikos I'm so hot you know...

Aku masak fresh ikan panggang with lemon slices.  Then selang 4 jam, keluar pulak cinnamon rolls serve panas-panas with coffee duduk kat patio tu.  For dinner, we have barbecue dekat situ pulak and I'll have my steak going.  Oh how I do love my steak (gigil)!

Well it was nice to have checked out sekejap.

Time to rejoin the reality!

Nadia.Is.AtTheBeach