Strange

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My heart aches.  I've never felt tired like this.  Maybe I have.  I would have forgotten.  But heartache is always the same.  It hurts each time.

I try overlooking a situation differently.  Changing its perspective.  Get lost for suddenly stopping and dreaming when pausing. 

But heart aches the same.  It hurts each time.

Only this time is different.  I've been googling for one word.  And one word only.
I am scaring myself.  I should stop searching for it.  It will only do damage.

But yes, the heart still aches the same.
How do you make it stop?

I know.  I'm slipping.
Dear God, please help me.