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Sekali lagi saya ingin mengaburi perasaan saya sendiri. Tapi saya tak sanggup.
"Kenapa orang tu tak paham? Kenapa suka shutdown? Kenapa suka ke tak suka ke tak boleh bagitau? Kenapa okay ke tak okay tak boleh bagitau? Kenapa boleh atau tidak pun tak boleh bagitau? Kalau bagitau pun kenapa tak boleh bercakap? Kenapa nak kena merentan-rentan membutakan saraf sampai tak tau mana datangnya punca merentan tu?"
I have a friend. I have a good friend. Often, when it happens, they are good at keeping secrets. That's the process. Not that you don't want to save yourself. It's something that you don't want to think about. Sebab banyak lagi benda yang boleh pikir. Put yourself constantly behind. Ada lagi ramai orang yang lebih penting yang perlu diselamatkan.
We cannot teach things that you have to learn yourself how to build up for yourself. Just how I can't teach you to swallow a huge pill down your throat. It's something you have to learn. In your own pace. In your own strength.
But I will breakdown with you, when you need me. With what I can give and provide you.
And I will listen til it breaks me.
Because I am your friend.
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